Divorce, Death, Damage, Devastation, Desertion, Depression, Diversity, Discovery & Determination!
I’ve experienced them all
Divorce from a man I spent 30 years of my life with
Death of my parents, grandparents, best friend & family members
Damage to my spinal cord after a serious car accident
Devastation from things unimaginable, shaking my world to its core
Desertion from those who couldn’t handle the burden from the fallout
Depression both through & after those losses
Diversity in dynamic changes within my family
Discovery of who I’ve become after experiencing these things
Determination to restore my childlike wonder & evolve as a stronger woman!
The below song makes me think of the love & security felt in relationships, the imbalance felt when those relationships are severed & the realization that the beauty from those unions remain with us forever.
Wanting Memories~ by Sweet Honey in the Rock
(I suggest you open the song link below, so that you can hear the music as you read the lyrics…)
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
You used to rock me in the cradle of your arms
You said you’d hold me til the pains of life were gone
You said you’d comfort me in times like these
and now I need you
Now I need you
And you are gone
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
Since you’ve gone and left me
There’s been so little beauty
But I know I saw it clearly through your eyes
Now the world outside is such a cold and bitter place
Here inside I have few things that will console
And when I try to hear your voice above the storms of life
Then I remember
all the things that I was told
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
I think on the things that made me feel so wonderful when I was young
I think on the things that made me laugh
made me dance
made me sing
I think on the things that made me grow into a being full of pride
I think on these things
For they are true
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
I thought that you were gone
But now I know you’re with me
You are the voice that whispers all I need to hear
I know a please, a thank you, and a smile will take me far
I know that I am you and you are me and we are one
I know that who I am is numbered in each grain of sand
I know that I’ve been blessed
Again
and over again
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
To see the beauty in the world
Through my own eyes
mammasu 